Today I am truly not sure if I have nothing to say or everything to say. I just want to write. It is deep winter here in Missouri. It is cold and icy. Me and the nature kids are not digging it. We need to be outside exploring and sink into the natural world, preferably the warm natural world. We are all a little cranky and alot unsettled. One thing brightened my mood, I was reading an climate report for our area and it said although it can be very cold, our winter is relatively short. When I think about it objectively I understand that is true. When I am cold and have cabin fever I know that it is going to last forever!!!! So I am focused on passing the time hopefully with some joy.
I am in the process of acquiring some pen pals. I am talking honest to goodness letter writing people. I will write them a letter. They will write me a latter. Lather. Rinse. Repeat. Hopefully. That is how is should work. I love writing old fashioned letters. Now I am going to write them to strangers and hopefully they will be very cool, groovy, hip mommas in their own special way. I am looking forward to it!
The training for the half marathon is crazy. It is good but oh my goodness what have I done. I am starting to move into the middle part. The intial zeal is worn off and the race is not imminent. I think this is the most important part, the daily grind. My job is to show up and do my schedule. Mother Nature has tried to thwart me but I keep showing up. I missed two work out due to ice and sort of freaked. I have momentum, don't blow it! I am learning alot from this experience. I am really pondering and studying mental toughness. I think that is the key. Actually, I think mental toughness and self discipline is the key to life not just a race.
Hooping. I long more than you can imagine to grab my hoop daily and hoop outside. But it is too stinking cold! So I go to hoop jams and workshops. I am super excited about the next workshop from the St Louis Hoop Club. It will be four part and have things like belly dance, poi, hoop fusion, and other somethings. It is called Circus Fusion.
So this is me trying to get through the deep winter with a real smile on my face, joy in my heart, and sanity in tact. It just might work. Like everything, it is a time of learning. I am seeing beauty in the ordinary. There is so much incredible wonderfulness as my toddler laughs and runs away from me just begging me to chase. And the wonder, it is spectacular. My beautiful 3 year old angel sit in the window and watches the snow. Delight lights up her eyes and she says, "Momma, its snowing. It is beautiful. Merry Christmas!" Okay its February but who cares? She is so stinking amazing. So I guess I am passing the time this in deep winter with goals, dreams, and the beyond belief blessings of family.